Heartbroken

Thank you all so much who have been praying for Jill and Alex and their little baby. Unfortunately they found out this afternoon that they are not pregnant. I am heartbroken for them. She is praising God in this storm though, which is awesome to see. I wish so much that the news would have been the opposite today, but it wasn't. They are not sure what their next step is. They may try another cycle or they may start working towards adoption. Please continue to pray for them. And again thank you for your prayers.


I love you sister!

In the mood...

Camping mood that is. :) Andrew and I have been saying since we got married, almost five years ago, that we wanted to camping. I'm not sure he has ever even been camping before. I used to go all of the time as a child. In fact, camping is one of my all time favorite childhood memories. I love sleeping in a tent, swimming, playing cards, and even fishing. But my favorite - the food. Hamburgers and scrambled eggs & bacon somehow taste a thousand times better at a campsite. Anyways - I have finally just told Andrew that we are going next weekend so he best be ready. I think it might actually happen. It has to happen!! Last night we built a fire in our outdoor fireplace. Andrew grilled burgers and we ate and had our Bible study around the fire. It was so nice. I loved it. I was just as giddy as I could be. I kept telling Drew that those were the best burgers I've ever had - seriously I wish I could give you one. They were so good. I absolutely love the way a fire smells. I wish I could put that smell in this blog. Go ahead and close your eyes and imagine it - you know you want to. I am so ready for next weekend. Last night just really got me in the mood for camping. I wish I could take you all with me so that you could enjoy it too. Anyways I have a few pics for you - some from last night and some from my past camping days. Enjoy!

Just created...what should I do?

Okay so I made these for our bedroom. I'm okay with the horizontal one with ribbon, unless of course someone has a brilliant idea for it. But I don't like the one with the A & E. I know my E needs to be bigger, but I'm not sure if I like the A & E - just not sure what to put there. Thought about putting How Sweet It Is on top and To Be Loved By You on bottom - our fave song and was played at our wedding. The only thing stopping is me is ---- can I paint that? LOL

So comments and suggestions please....

More Light

Just saw a commercial differently for the first time and had to jot down my thoughts while they were fresh. It is a commercial for True Value. A lady buys a light bulb and finally puts it in. She is excited to have the light, but the light reveals all of the others things in her home that she needs to fix - a crack in the wall, a broken handle on a dresser, etc. How true is this of God. He is a great light to have in our life, yet that light often allows us to see our faults, our sins. This is kind of scary. None of us like to see these things, but how can we fix them if we don't see them and how can we see them without the light. Just a thought!

I Accept!

I've been struggling a lot lately with my relationship with God. I know that it is not where it is supposed to be, but I can't seem to get where I need to be. It's like I can see the goal over there, but I can't figure how to get there. Do I go through it, over it, under it, around it? I could go on and on with these prepositions. :) Andrew and I left our home church a little over a year ago. I tend to use that as my excuse as to why I'm not as close to God as I should be. At that church under the leadership of my pastor and my Sunday school teacher I was growing. Problem was I was getting all of my nourishment from those two people. Now I'm not and I'm having to learn to get it on my own. We have since joined a new church that I love, but if I'm honest I would have to say that since being at this new church I haven't "felt" God one time. I can blame this on a lot of things, but the truth is no one or no thing is to really to be blamed but myself. My pastor is a Godly man who preaches the Word of God. I just can't seem to open up and accept what God is trying to give me each week. I keep saying that I will do this or that to improve my relationship with God, but I don't seem to do any of these things.

Yesterday Cary, my pastor, began a sermon titled Bulls Eye Living. He talked about how our only goal should be living in God's will. That should be our primary concern, not all of the things that surround the bulls eye such as family, work, etc. I don't know that I would say this really spoke to me, but it is definitely something I honestly want to try to do. I need to figure out God's will for me at this time in my life. Cary says the way to do this is by getting to know God and His word. So that is my goal. I started off the morning praying and asking God to help me know him better today.

Last night I stumbled across Patter's blog. She is a scrapbooker like me. She post a weekly challenge based on a word. Her challenge is to help you grow in your relationship with God. Hmm - didn't I just say I need that. Unfortunately I'm joining this at week 40, but hey I'm diving in anyways and looking forward to starting with week 1 come January. Anyways - this week's word is "light". She gave a short devotional that she had on light and encouraged us to study this word this week. I immediately came home today and began looking up scripture on light. The word has such a deep meaning in the Bible. God is light - he outshines everything and he is a constant light. He shines all of the time. Light is the absence of darkness which is bad. When God is around there is no badness. His light prevails. He has called us to be his light here on Earth. We are to shine all of the time. As the song I sang as a child says, "Hide it under a bushel, NO!!!" We are to always shine, despite our circumstances. I know that there are Several days when I don't feel like shining. God says shine anyways. I believe our world today needs a lot of Light. We need to be shining in our neighborhood every day. I can't shine in your town and you can't shine in mine, so we must both shine. That is prayer for myself and for you this week. Lord, let us shine for you as brightly as we can. Let us shine continuously. Amen.


Below are a few versus that I read today on light that spoke to me.

You rescue the humble, but your eyes watch the proud and humiliate them. O LORD, you are my lamp. The LORD lights up my darkness. In your strength I can crush an army; with my God I can scale any wall.
2 Samuel 22:28-30

You light a lamp for me. The Lord, my God, lights up my darkness.
Psalm 18:28

The Lord is my light and my salvation - so why should I be afraid? The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger, so why should I tremble?
Psalm 27:1

Send out your light and your truth; let them guide me. Let them lead me to your holy mountain, to the place where you live.
Psalm 43:3


For you have rescued me from death; you have kept my feet from slipping. So now I can walk in your presence, O God, in your life-giving light.
Psalm 56:13

Happy are those who hear the joyful call to worship, for they will walk in the light of your presence, Lord.
Psalm 89:15


Light is sweet; how pleasant to see a new day dawning.
Ecclesiastes 11:7

You are the light of the world - like a city on a hilltop that cannot be hidden.
Matthew 5:14

No one lights a lamp and then puts it under a basket. Instead, a lamp is placed on a stand, where it gives light to everyone in the house.
Matthew 5:15

The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it.
John 1:5


I am looking forward to continuing studying light and scraping it later this week. I will post my creation.

Waiting patiently for Andrew's return

I'm sitting here surfing the net with a sleeping puppy on both sides as I wait for my sweetie to get home. His flight was supposed to leave San Antonio @ 3. I have no idea how long it takes to fly from San Antonio to Little Rock, but it is 7:00 so surely he'll be home pretty soon. Right?

Anyway - I was browsing blogs I came across this list and I thought it would be fun to share. I put an * by the ones that apply to me. Can't wait to see which ones apply to you.


Bought everyone in the bar a drink
Swam with wild dolphin
Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
Been inside the Great Pyramid
Held a tarantula
*Taken a candle lit bath - maybe I'll go do this one right now - sounds good.
*Said I love you and meant it
*Hugged a Tree
Bungee jumped
Visited Paris
Watched a lightning storm at sea
*Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
Seen the Northern Lights
*Gone to a huge sports game
Walked the stairs to the top of the Leaning Tower of Pisa
Grown and eaten your own vegetables
Touched an iceberg
*Slept under the stars
*Changed a baby’s diaper
Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
*Watched a meteor shower
Gotten drunk on champagne
Given more than you can afford to charity
*Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
*Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
Had a food fight
Bet on a winning horse
Asked out a stranger
*Had a snowball fight
*Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
Held a lamb
*Seen a total eclipse
*Ridden a roller coaster
Hit a home run
*Danced like a fool, not caring who watched
*Adopted an accent for an entire day - well a different accent for every customer :)
*Actually felt happy about your life, even for a moment
*Had two hard drives for your computer
Visited all 50 states - Someday I will be able to put a * by this one.
Taken care of someone who was too drunk
*Had amazing Friends
Danced with a Stranger in a foreign country
Watched wild whales
*Stolen a sign
Hitchhiked in Europe
*Taken a road-trip
Gone rock climbing
*Midnight walk on the beach
Gone sky diving
Visited Ireland
Been heartbroken longer than you were in love
In a restaurant sat at a stranger’s table and ate with them
Visited Japan
Milked a cow
*Alphabetized your CDs
Pretended to be a superhero
Sung karaoke
*Lounged around in bed all day
Posed nude in front of strangers
Gone scuba diving
*Kissed in the rain
*Played in the mud
*Played in the rain
Gone to a drive-in theater
Visited the Great Wall of China
*Started a business
*Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
Toured ancient sites
Taken a martial arts class
Played a computer game for more than 6 hours straight
*Gotten married
Been in a movie
Crashed a party
Gone without food for 5 days
*Made cookies from scratch
Won first prize in a costume contest
Ridden a gondola in Venice
Gotten a tattoo
Rafted the Snake River
Been on television news program as an “expert”
Got flowers for no reason
*Performed on a stage
Been to Las Vegas
Recorded Music
Eaten shark
Had a one-night stand
Gone to Thailand
*Bought a house
Been in a combat zone
Buried one/both of your parents
Been on a cruise ship
Spoken more than one language fluently
Performed in Rocky Horror
Raised Children
Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
*Picked up and moved to another city
Walked on the Golden Gate Bridge
*Sang loudly in the car and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking
Had plastic surgery
Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have
Wrote articles for a large publication
Lost over 100 lbs
Held someone while they were having a flashback
Piloted an airplane
Petted a stingray
*Broken someone’s heart
Helped an animal give birth
Won money on a TV game show
Broken a bone
Gone on an African safari
*Had a body part below the neck pierced
*Fired a rifle, shotgun or pistol
Eaten mushrooms gathered in the wild
*Ridden a horse
Had major surgery
Had a snake as a pet
Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
Slept for more than 30 hours over 48 consecutive hours
Visited more foreign countries than US States
Visited all 7 continents
Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
Eaten kangaroo meat
Eaten sushi
*Had your picture in the paper
Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about
*Gone back to school
Parasailed
Petted a cockroach
Eaten fried green tomatoes
Read the Illiad
Selected one important author who you missed school to read
Killed and prepared an animal for eating
Skipped all of your school reunions
Communicated with someone without sharing a common language
Been elected to public office
Written your own computer language
*Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream
Had to put someone you love in hospice care
Build your own PC from parts
Sold your own artwork to someone that didn’t know it was yours
Had a booth in a street fair
Dyed your hair
Been a DJ
Shaved your head
*Caused a car accident
Saved someone’s life

Saturday Morning

Well... just an update on the past couple of days. Thursday afternoon Andrew left for San Antonio for work. He is supposed to be back tonight. It hasn't been to bad because I've kept myself busy. Thursday night I took dinner to Jill and hung out with her. We watched the VP debate. She seems to be doing well by the way. We won't know the outcome of her transfer for a couple of weeks. I'll be sure to keep you updated on her and Alex.

Yesterday I had inservice at school which flew by. I didn't get nearly as much done as I had hoped. Yesterday afternoon I had to take both dogs to the vet - what an adventure. Liberty had to go for her yearly check up. Liam needed a booster shot and they were checking to see if his parasite was gone. It looks like it is. :) After managing to get them home I took off to Jill's again. Andrew's oldest brother, Chris and his wife Kerri, welcomed a new baby girl into the family yesterday. Her name is Kandace April Weaver and she is absolutely gorgeous. We went to meet her last night. Her daddy even let go of her long enough for us to hold her. LOL! He is definitely in love with his little girl and she seems to already know her daddy's voice.

After we left the hospital Jill, Momma and Daddy Weaver, Joy (Andrew's sister), Cody, Pryce (nephews), and I went to eat at Dixie Cafe. It was yummy! Then home to bed. I had to baby Liberty when I got home. The vet always makes her mopey. She wanted her mommy. She wouldn't leave me side and wanted me to carry her everywhere - just like a child.

So now it is Saturday morning. I'm typing away and the dogs are eating each other's faces - it's what they do. I'm sitting here wondering what I'm going to do until 7 when Drew gets home. I need to do laundry in a major way and I need to do some work for school, but right now I don't really want to do either. I don't even want to watch tv. I'm so used to watching Andrew's shows on Saturday morning.

Well I guess I've rambled enough for today. Below are some pictures of the beautiful Kandace April.

Kandace with her Mommy & Daddy


with her Granny


with her Papa


with her Aunt E


with her Aunt Joy


and with her Aunt Jill