Friday, February 1, 2019

Celebrating Jayden

February is Jayden's birthday month.  

In the days after I delivered Jayden last year I began to think about how we would celebrate his birthday every year. I love birthdays and I knew I would want to do something special to celebrate the day. 

My first thought was to make a cake on his birthday and have a special dinner for just Andrew and me.  And maybe we'll still do that.

I read stories of how other people have honored their precious babies.

Some people release balloons.  Others go to their local bakery and pay for a birthday cake for another family.

While I liked those ideas neither of them felt right.

I prayed occasionally about how we should celebrate but honestly I really forgot about it.

Until December.

On December 21, I received a text message from someone I have never met.  

Through this blog a chaplain at Washington Regional Medical Center, where we ended up in the ER and learned that we had lost Jayden, read our story.  Her name is Bekah and she went to school with Andrew and his siblings.  God placed it on her heart to improve the care that women receive while they are walking through the darkness of a miscarriage.  Bekah wrote a grant for funding to help in this area.

Because of this grant when a woman comes into their ER and learns she is miscarrying she is now sent home with a kit.  The kit includes gloves, a toilet hat, specimen cup (in case she wants to bring her baby back in for further testing), a casket, a list of funeral homes, and materials on grief as well as what is available in the area for help with grief.  She will also receive a small crochet item with a note that says forever loved and never forgotten.

I cry as I share this because I am just so humbled and grateful that God would use our loss to help other women in this way.  

I have shared our journey for the past seven plus years in hopes that God's faithfulness would shine and that I might somehow be of help to others who are walking a similar path.  

God is using our darkest days to bring light to others.  

I'm just in awe of His love.

When Bekah shared with me about this grant and how they were trying to do a better job of ministering to women who come into their ER experiencing one of the greatest losses of their lives, I instantly knew how I wanted to celebrate Jayden's birthday this year.

What better way to honor Jayden than by helping others.

I shared with Andrew my desire to help with this ministry and he immediately agreed.

God gave me the perfect way to celebrate Jayden.

A little over two years ago God spoke to my heart through a devotion I read (You can read it here).  He encouraged me that His timing was perfect and He has a special purpose for THIS child that we were praying for.  

Since losing Jayden, there have been many times when I questioned God's purpose in giving us a baby only to take that baby away so soon.  

God answered my questioning.  

If we hadn't ended up in the ER losing Jayden then this ministry might not have come to be.  

God is using our Jayden's life.

There is purpose.

Bekah put me in contact with a development officer at the hospital who has helped me set up a way to give a gift in honor of Jayden.  

Andrew and I will be giving a gift on February 13, Jayden's birthday.  

We don't want anyone to feel pressured to give but I am sharing the information on how to give with you because we have had some family members express a desire to give Jayden a birthday present in this way.  

If you would like to give a monetary gift (one kit costs $22)  that will go towards the ministry of helping women suffering a miscarriage you can give online here.  Under designation, please choose Patient Assistance Fund.  Toward the bottom of the page mark the box that indicates that it is a gift in honor of someone.  This will bring up a new box where you can enter Jayden's full name.

Jayden Ball Weaver

Monday, January 21, 2019

Avoiding Homework

A few minutes ago I shared on instagram how grad school is teaching me just how indecisive I am.  I am supposed to be making a "how-to" video using screen capturing.  However, I can not seem to settle on an idea for this project.  

So I'm here.


For the first time this year.

I posted my 2018 Reading List earlier this month but I'm not counting that as real blogging.

I want to get back to blogging.  I can't say that I've missed it.  

I haven't.

However for a few months now I've been feeling a pull back to this little space.  Some friends and some complete strangers have shared with me how my blog has encouraged them or made a difference for others.  

That's what drives me back.

But it also makes me feel like every post needs to be this beautiful, inspiring post.

That's a lot of pressure.

So tonight I'm avoiding homework and just babbling here in hopes that eventually I will babble my way back into a real post that actually says something meaningful.

Tuesday, January 1, 2019

2018 Reading

1. Love Story by Karen Kingsbury
2. Sisters First: Stories from Our Wild and Wonderful Life by Jenna Bush Hager & Barbara Bush
3. Comfort & Joy by Kristin Hannah
4. Call the Midwife by Jennifer Worth
5. Buried Secrets by Irene Hannon
6. Thin Ice by Irene Hannon
7. Tangled Webs by Irene Hannon
8. The Choice by Robert Whitlow
9. The Living Room by Robert Whitlow
10. The Energy Bus by JonGordon
11. The List by Robert Whitlow
12. The Sacrifice by Robert Whitlow
13. Angel Falls by Kristin Hannah
14. Lilac Girls by Martha Hall Kelly
15. Mathivate by Kim Thomas
16. Woman of God by James Patterson
17. The Flying Tigers: The Untold Story of the American Pilots Who Waged a Secret War Against Japan Before Pearl Harbor b Sam Kleiner
18. The Wedding Shop by Rachel Hauck
19. The Great Alone by Kristin Hannah
20. A Legacy of Love by Amy Clipston
21. The Cedar Chest by Beth Wiseman
22. The Treasured Book by Kathleen Fuller
23. The Midwife's Dream by Kelly Irvin
24. What Great Teachers Do Differently: 17 Things that Matter Most by Todd Whitaker
25. A Promise for Ellie by Lauraine Snelling
26. Sophie's Dilemma by Lauraine Snelling
27. A Touch of Grace by Lauraine Snelling
28. Rebecca's Reward by Lauraine Snelling
29. True Colors by Kristin Hannah
30.  Deep Thoughts From a Hollywood Blonde by Jennie Garth
31. Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom
32. From New York to L.A. by Mandy Lawson
33. Whispers of the Bayou by Mindy Starns Clark
34.To the Moon and Back by Karen Kingsbury
35. Catching Christmas by Terri Blackstock
36. Just a Little Frosting by Mandy Lawson
37. Bygone Christmas Brides by Ginny Aiken
38. Naomi's Gift by Amy Clipston
39. An Unexpected Joy by Ruth Reid
40. A Christmas Visitor by Kelly Irvin
41. Christmas at Carnton by Tamera Alexander

Monday, December 17, 2018

Weekend Recap

This time of the year is BUSY BUSY for the Weavers.  It seems like we have something on our calendar for every day.

I love it and am completely exhausted by it all at the same time.

This past weekend was filled with family, friends, and fun.

On Friday afternoon my parents along with my niece and nephew drove up for a visit.  We had plans to go see the Christmas lights at Silver Dollar City but the weather kept us away.  Instead they came over to the house for dinner and left Mikey & Ellie for a sleepover.  

Ellie was not too sure about Lib & Lincoln.

And Mikey wanted to be Lib & Lincoln.

Aunt E was sleepy so we all piled into the bed to watch a Christmas movie.

 He could not look any more like his daddy!

I hope she always plays with his hair.

Mikey was the first one awake Saturday morning and he was super cuddly.  I LOVED it!

Ellie was not ready to wake up quite so early.

She popped right up when she heard me say breakfast but she didn't last long.

They are now 3 1/2 and we had a first on Saturday.  I've never taken these two to the store by myself but we got brave and ventured out to Dollar Tree.

We had to do something.  Aunt E's toys are all in storage somewhere.

They were really well behaved and picked out lots of fun toys.

After lunch and more play time my parents came and picked up the kiddos and said goodbye.

I instantly missed them but I also instantly took a nap.  

Saturday evening we headed to hang out with some friends.  One of the best parts of this move has been living less than an hour away from Andrew and Heather.  Her Andrew and my Andrew were college roommates.  We have loved picking up where we left off all those years ago.

We made homemade pizzas and visited until way too late.  Their kids had never made homemade pizzas so it was fun to watch them assemble their masterpieces.

These are the only two pictures I got of the night.  We are too busy talking and laughing and I forget to snap one of the adults.  Maybe next time.

Also...can I just say how much I love watching my husband with our friends' kids.  Melts my heart every time!!

We rounded off the weekend with a fabulous play put on by the kids at church.

It was sweet and funny and all the things a kids Christmas play should be.  We especially loved seeing our three neighbor girls on stage.  

And now it is one more week of work and then the travelling begins.

Sunday, September 23, 2018

A New Adventure

Hi people!

I seem to have taken a hiatus from the blog.  I'm not sure if anyone even noticed.

But I'm back now.

A new adventure has prompted my return.

Let me back up a few months and fill you in.

At the end of May Andrew resigned from his job.

This afforded us something we'd never had before.

A summer off work together.

I tell my fellow teachers this and we joke about how awful it must be to have your spouse home all day every day during summer break.

And I'll admit it drove me crazy at first. Having Andrew home was a change to my summer schedule.  Thankfully it didn't take him long to settle down into a summer routine of nothingness.

It gave us the opportunity to take a vacation we've only dreamt about before.

In June we packed our car to the gills, dropped the LBs off with family and headed west.

We had no itinerary, no spreadsheet.  

We've never traveled so irresponsibly.  

There were a few nights in hotels but for the most part we camped our away across the west travelling over 5,000 miles through 13 states in 14 days.

Maybe we'll share some of those adventures with you soon.  I've wanted to blog it since we returned but it was such a big trip the thought of putting it all in words was overwhelming.

At the end of June we moved out of our rent house and back to our home in Heber.  By this point our house was on the market and we planned to live there until it sold or until school started again.

August arrived with no offers on the house and it was time for me to go back to work.  Working almost two hours from where you live is not the ideal situation.  

On Monday mornings I get up crazy early and make the long commute to work.  I then stay with Andrew's parents throughout the week.  

Staying with the inlaws. 

 People tend to apologize to me when I tell them that's what I'm doing.  I guess not everyone has inlaws like I do.  I've enjoyed staying with them and hopefully they haven't been too bothered by my presence.  Big Man is always good to make sure I'm comfortable and the air is set to just the right setting.  Belinda has given me a new love for all the cooking competitions on Food Network.  

When Friday mornings rolls around I pack my backs so I can head home for the weekend.

This isn't the first time Andrew and I have been what I call weekend spouses.  But I wouldn't mind if it were the last time.  

As I returned to work, Andrew decided it might be time for him to do the same.

And the job search began.

There was talk of several different options.  Some were short talks.  Some were more serious.

I continued to tell him I'd follow him wherever he wanted to go.  

Seems like a cheesy cop out answer, but it is how I felt.

Life has felt very unsettled and I simply wanted to feel settled again no matter where that meant we lived. 

He mentioned cities I didn't really want to call home, but I just wanted that feeling of being unsettled to disappear.  I was willing to discuss any and all options.

In the midst of the job search we accepted an offer on our house.   God  brought the perfect buyers and we are set to close at the end of October.  

Not sure where we would be living after moving out of our beloved home, things picked up speed as Andrew interviewed with Redneck Trailer Supplies in Springfield, Missouri.

Springfield sounded the most appealing out of all the places he has mentioned.  It's not that far or that different from home.  

I could do life in Springfield.

From the beginning RTS has appeared to be very interested in Andrew.  

I can't say I blame them. :)

His interview was over five hours long.  He had five different interviews for one job.

I would have be physically ill.

Actually I was physically ill the day of his interview.  My students could tell I was a bit preoccupied.  I'm pretty sure nothing I said made sense that day and I made one mistake after another.

 On Friday Andrew accepted a job offer from RTS.

We are moving to Missouri.

We are going to be...

Wait, what do you call people from Missouri?


Yes I think so.

We are going to be Missourians.

I have never been anything other than an Arkansan.  

Never thought I'd be anything different either.

We are excited about this new adventure.

But if I'm being honest I must tell you I've also already had a good cry about this new adventure.

I told my principal Friday and my BeMS Math Family (Earhart, just pretend like you are a Math guy).

They were all very supportive.

But they also gave me dirty looks and told me they were not talking to me anymore.

Makes a girl feel wanted.

Makes a girl feel good

Also makes a girl cry.

I love these people and my current school.  It breaks my heart to leave them.

Andrew has been saying he was retired for the past few months.  I was hoping I might get the chance to be retired for a few months but I may not get the opportunity.

Springfield has a 7th grade Math position available.  

I'm applying this weekend.

Looks like one more way God is lining it out all for this new adventure.

Andrew will move and start work in one week.  I'm not sure when I will join him.  It will depend on whether or not I have a job there.

You have prayed us through so much in the past.  We would be honored if you would pray for us as we begin this new adventure.

We love you all!