I'm not really sure to how to begin this post or even where I'm going with this post. Honestly, I'm not even sure if I'll hit publish when I'm finished. There are things I just feel like I need to write out. I figure it's my blog and I'll cry if I want to. Right?
Do you ever have days where it seems like every little thing makes you cry? You can't seem to keep it together for more than a few minutes before losing it all over again?
That's been me the past couple of days.
I have really been struggling with something personal lately. It's one of those things that I keep telling myself is crazy, but I can't make myself believe that. I don't want to talk about it to anyone because I know people will respond in one of two ways. They will either tell me I'm wrong and give me compliments because that's what you do in a situation like this or they will laugh and say I'm crazy for thinking that way.
I've only shared about this issue twice - once with my husband and once with a coworker. I got the two reactions above. I don't really blame my husband. He's a guy and I guess you could say this is a girl thing. But my coworker's reaction really hurt my feelings and pretty much reassured that I didn't need to share this with anyone else ever again.
So I feel like it's just me and this situation and I'm losing. Not fun. Last night something triggered the thought and I just lost it. I cried all night. And I'm talking the snot running out your nose, face all red and blotchy, can't catch your breath kind of crying.
I went to work today only to be greeted by a concerned parent who wanted to tell me everything I was doing as a teacher was wrong. Please don't go bashing this parent. She really was just concerned for her student. She wasn't nasty or anything like that. I believe she genuinely felt bad for what she was saying. Her child isn't your average student. I just couldn't take it today. It was all I could do to maintain professionalism and not cry. I pray that other teachers would never have to endure the type of meeting I had today. It was painful.
Today's goal quickly became to make it through the day without crying in front of my students. Thankfully God has blessed me with a great boss and some of the best coworkers in the world.
I just feel like someone has opened the flood gates. I can't seem to stop crying, which is frustrating.
Hoping to dance out my stress and worry and tears tonight during two hours of Zumba!
1. Tonight was the season premier of The Sing Off. It's one of the few reality shows that gets me hooked.
It's a singing competition for a Capella groups. I got hooked last year. This is the third season for the show. My brother and I were texting back and forth throughout the show. I think it's probably one of the only shows that we both watch. :) It's normally a competition between us because we never like the same group.
2. Late last night the husband was making a snack. He decided to have a tuna sandwich. He puts the tuna in bowl and gets out the dill relish to mix in. The relish apparently got stuck so he was shaking it the way you would a ketchup bottle. Then I heard it. The big boom! The kitchen was covered in relish. My husband was covered in green gunk. My white kitchen cabinets were now green. And all I could do was laugh! After all that our mayo had gone bad so he didn't even get his tuna sandwich.
3. I'm loving my hogs this year! They are 3-0 right now. Yay! Of course they haven't played a real team yet. This weekend will be the true test. We are playing Bama on the road. My house is all decked out for the season. I have my razorback coasters out, my September canvas with a hog on it, and my new sign on my front door. My sweet friend, Jennifer, painted it for me. She did a fabulous job.
4. The husband and I went on a date Saturday night. We went to the movies to see Seven Days in Utopia. It was a good movie. I would definitely recommend it. I wasn't a fan of the ending. I don't like to be left hanging. :)
We have been super busy lately. It's exhausting how busy we've been really.
Let's back up to Friday. I spent Friday night at the high school game. I watched very little of the game. I was there on business...selling Popsicles to raise money for our trip to D.C. Don't know if I mentioned that yet. A coworker and I are taking a group of 7th and 8th graders to D.C. this spring. We are super excited about it. So anyway I spent Friday night selling Popsicles at the football game and practicing my new camera skills on something other than my sweet furbabies. Here is my favorite picture from the night.
Saturday I woke up bright and early and headed to Aqua Zumba. Okay so I just thought Zumba was a workout. Doing it in the water? That's a whole other level.
The rest of the day was spent gearing up for Saturday night's football game. Liam Bailey wore his jersey all year in anticipation.
I made some yummy chicken nachos for dinner. They were yummy if I do say so.
Sunday - nothing happened other than a major headache.
This week has been exhausting so far and it's only Wednesday. I have had something every night. I'm looking forward to Friday when I can come home and do nothing. Most of the things I've had or have are good things. Only one was a work thing. It's just being gone all day and all night wears this girl out.
Hoping you've had a more relaxing week than I've had.
The husband bought me a new camera for my birthday. It is a Nikon D5100.
I am super excited about it. It finally arrived today so of course I had to play with it tonight. Thankfully I have two of the cutest subjects to try it out on. Here are my favorites from our little photo shoot tonight.
On a totally different note...I had my first class in Aqua Zumba tonight. That was interesting. Definitely a workout. Looking forward to going back Saturday morning.
I opened the backdoor long enough to let Liberty and Liam out this morning. It was a bit cool. I immediately thought it felt and maybe even smelled a bit like fall.
It might have gotten me all excited. I'm excited. I love everything about fall. Plus I have a new dress, new boots, and a new jacket all just waiting to be worn this fall. I CAN NOT WAIT.
To me fall starts with the first Razorback game. That took place this past Saturday. It's time to break out all the fall/Razorback decor. Maybe I'll share some pics with you soon. They might have even be taken with my new camera...a birthday present from the husband that I'll share more about it later. I'm waiting for it to arrive. I have a new "fall" scent from scentsy called pumpkin marshmallow. It is wonderful! You must try it. I'm thinking about hosting a party later this month. If you live in the area, would you come? I'm always so nervous about hosting things like this. What if no one shows up? Aww my insecurities.
The husband spent the weekend in Osceola visiting with his family and helping his parents work on their new house. We were supposed to go together, but Friday I decided we should go our separate ways. Me to my family Friday night and him to his on Saturday. I was WAY behind on grading papers, because who grades papers on their birthday or after sitting at he first football game all night? I knew going to Osceola would leave me stressed out today trying to finish everything before tomorrow. I guess I could have taken it with me and worked on it there, but that seemed a bit rude to me.
I'm glad I decided to stay behind because I've been sick all weekend. I have a horrible cold. I'm sneezing all over all the place and I can't be up for more than a few minutes before I feel awful and need to sit back down. I wanted so badly to have the house clean before the husband came home, but I just haven't felt like it. I managed to get about half of my papers graded Saturday night and I've done a bit of laundry here and there.
I'm feeling a little better this morning so maybe I can get a little more done before he comes home.
This past Tuesday was my 28th birthday. I have officially entered my late twenties. Life at 28 is not at all what I had expected. First of all, 28 doesn't feel as old as I once thought it might. I'm married to my best friend and it's better than I could have ever dreamed. Still no babies, except for those two crazy furbabies and I'm okay with that.
I had a great birthday for the most part. I woke up Tuesday morning to a what felt like a thousand facebook messages and text wishing me a happy birthday. My momma called around 6:45 the way she does every year - something I look forward to every year. I got all dressed up for the day. Make up and everything. A rare occasion for me.
I decided to treat myself to chocolate milk and donuts on the way to school. When I arrived at school, I was bombarded with several more birthday wishes. A former student brought me a balloon tied to kit-kats with the sweetest card. Made me cry
My sweet friends and coworkers that I eat lunch with everyday surprised me with a Razorback Tervis Tumbler and a Sonic gift card. They are the best
The biggest surprise of the day occurred around 9:30. Two of my students walked in carrying cupcakes and behind them was my daddy. He not only baked cupcakes, but drove two hours to deliver them. How sweet is he!! I have the best parents! He stayed a couple of hours and visited. I'm glad he was able to see me at work.
Last night I drove to my Mommom's house to celebrate with my family. She made me chicken and dumplings. My favorite! They were so good. I ate until I was miserable.
My talented cousin, Ginger, made me the cutest owl cake. I'm obsessed with owls. She did a fab job as always. It tasted as good as it looked.
It was a pretty good birthday. I'm blessed with lots of wonderful family and friends.