But...

I have been a very busy girl lately. It seems I am always going. I always have a to do list that I'm trying to work my way through. Even when I am not physically running around trying to get this or that done, my mind is still going.

In the past few weeks, Andrew and I have had several conversations about our sleeping habits. We don't seem to be getting the rest we need. We have ventured many guesses as to what is standing in the way of our rest. Our mattress stinks, dogs sleep with us, we practically live in our bed, etc... the list goes on.

All of these may very well be contributing factors. But.... You know something painful is coming when there is a but. Normally whatever follows a but is something we don't really want to hear. In this case, the but comes from God. And it is definitely something I haven't wanted to hear. Or maybe I thought I didn't need to hear it.

Whatever the case, the but is there and it keeps coming back. My to do list is not important. Okay maybe it is important, but it doesn't have an eternal outcome. Crossing something of my to do list is a temporary satisfaction. That isn't why God put me on this Earth.

For me, the but is this....Slow down. Stop your hectic life and just spend some time with God. I am guilty of saying that God just doesn't speak to me. I'm sure you all know someone who has said that. Now I'm thinking that God has been screaming at me, blinking lights, hitting me over the head, and doing everything else he can to get my attention. I've just been too busy to notice. Too busy to stop and listen.

I've been doing a lot of thinking about my relationship with my earthly husband compared to my relationship with my heavenly husband. We are Jesus' bride. When Andrew and I first started dating, I couldn't get enough. I wanted to be with him every free moment I had. I rearranged my schedule to spend time with him. He didn't come with a manuel, but if he had, I bet I would have read it a thousand times. I wanted to know everything I could about him. I even wanted to be more like him. Do we girls not pretend to like something because our men like it? I have watched hours of football, golf, and cycling simply because it pleases my husband. He enjoys that stuff. I find myself even liking Fox News, but please don't tell him that. :)

I have put countless hours into my relationship with Andrew. I still continue to do that. I still want to spend time with him. I still want to make him happy. I still want to enjoy the things he enjoys.

I know without a doubt, that my husband loves me. He cares about me and wants me to be happy. But, (there's that word again), I also know that my heavenly father loves me even more. He also wants me to be happy.

Jesus Christ did something for me that Andrew will never be able to do for me. He died on a Roman cross so that I could spend eternity in Heaven. How incredibly awesome is that!!!

Then comes the hard stuff? What do I put into my relationship with Him? If I'm honest, it isn't much. I make time for Jesus when I have time left over after my to do list is complete... if I am not too tired. I meet God occasionally. I don't yearn to spend as much time with him as possible. My heavenly husband comes with a manuel and yet I don't spend hours pouring over the manuel trying to learn more about Him. I'm not purposely making myself for like him for his pleasure.

I'm just being honest. My relationship with God has been out of convenience lately. It has not been what He wants it to be. It hasn't been what I want it to be.

The but for me has been that I need to slow down, shut up, and just listen to God. He has been running along side of me all this time, but I need to give both of us a break. It is time to rest with my Lord.

I have decided that I have to listen to this but. God has given this to me in at least five different unrelated places/ways. It seems like everytime I turn around, I'm being told that I'm too busy. To slow down.

I'm not going to say but this time... there is not but, I still have this to do but, I don't know how but, I'm too sleepy. No more buts. I just want to stop, spend time with my Lord, listen and obey. That is why God put me here.

Where did it go?

That is the question I'm asking myself about this weekend. How can it already be time for a new week to begin.

This honestly might have been the busiest weekend of my life. It is definitely up there. I have been running since I left school on Friday.

I have been working on an ABC scrapbook for my sister-in-law, Sara, as a gift for her baby shower. For anyone who may not know, an ABC book means there is a page for each letter. For example A is Announcing the Arrival, B is Brother & Me, and so on. Even though I've known for quite some time that her shower was today, I waited until a little over a week ago to start. :) That is just how I do these things. When Friday arrived, I still had several pages to complete, and by several, I mean well over half. So... I left school right after the buses on Friday and came home and got buys scrapping. I managed to get four pages done before it was time to get ready to leave.

Five of us got together at Jill's house to work on things for the shower. I enjoyed hanging out, but I ended up volunteering to do even more crafts. I know this may seem crazy, but I love Sara and I love crafting so it was no big deal. And what I did really did take that long at all thanks to my Inspiration. However, it did mean I was up later than normal and didn't get any more scrapbooking done on Friday night.

Saturday, Andrew and I woke up around 7. We had to get ready to go to the Juvenile Diabetes walk with my student council kids. I am so thankful it didn't rain on us at all. We had 8 cars of people go for our team. It was about 20 kids and 10 adults give or take a few. Great turnout! I really enjoyed it. I love my kiddos so much!!!! After that 5K walk and running errands afterwards, I was in major need of a nap. I think I slept for like an hour before it was time to go again.

We had a leadership conference at church. I will admit, I did not want to go. However, the husband really wanted me to go with him so I went. I am so glad I did. We had a guest speaker who was pretty good. He is the president of an online seminary. During the conference, there were a couple of times where we had to share with our neighbor about some things. They were some tough questions, some personal questions. I am so proud of myself for being brutally honest. I didn't try to act like I was better at it than I really am. I know that may sound crazy to some of you... that I'm proud of myself for being honest. It's hard for me to do that sometimes, especially with close friends who were in my group. I worry too much about what other people think. But I did it, and I'm glad. I learned they struggle in some of the same areas that I do.

After the leadership conference, instead of coming home to scrapbook like I should have, I cam home and watched the Hogs. Really should have scrapbooked. Those stinkin' hogs lost. Very frustrating. I get so into these games. I remember a time when I didn't care about it at all. Now I stress myself out while watching games. Ridiculous.

After the game, I stayed up until 12 to scrapbook. Then was back up at 7 this morning. I scrapbooked some more and finished the album. Then it was off to church. Great message this morning.

As soon as Brother Tom said Amen, I was out of there today. I ran to Wal-Mart for wrapping supplies and then headed to the church. We got all set up for the shower and then enjoyed loving on Sara and Miss M.

Lately, it seems it has been Baby Baby Baby. I think about them so much, I am having dreams about babies every night it seems. I really enjoyed making Miss M a blanket and scrapbook. As I worked, I prayed for her. I tell you this, I can't even begin to imagine how Sara and Cary, and Jill and Alex feel. I'm just the aunt, but I am so ready to meet these little girls. I want to hold them and love on them. I am thankful God gave me two arms...one for each of my sweet nieces. :)

Tonight we had our first meeting of groups. I really enjoyed it. We are going to be getting to know some great people. I cannot wait until the 4th to have our half of the group in our home.



As you can imagine, there are a lot of pics to go with this post. However, you are going to have to wait on those. I'm tired and need sleep so they will be coming hopefully tomorrow.

Like I said, busy busy weekend. Despite that, it was also a very blessed weekend. One that I really enjoyed.

Francesca Battistelli

I am not the person who listens to the entire cd when I get a new one. I'm just not. I listen to the one or two songs I know over and over, but that's it. I do this because I like to be able to sing along with whatever I listen too. I'm also not the person who can hear a song one time and know the lyrics. I have to hear a song SEVERAL times before I know the lyrics. I often play a few lines of a song, and start over adding a few lines each time until I have learned the entire song. I'm am the kind of person who likes to only hear songs the way I've learned them. I don't do remakes. Again, it is because I like to sing along. I get used to singing a song a certain way, and it is near impossible for me to change that.

This really limits the music I listen too. I often never really get to know all the songs on my cd. I rarely hear a song and love it the first time around.

One cd may have changed all of this...


I received Francesca's new cd on Sunday as a birthday present from my brother. Let me just tell you, it hasn't left the cd player since I opened it. I absolutely love this cd. Every single song!!! I am already singing along with almost every song. Every time I get in my car, I turn it on and immediately began dancing and singing as I drive. Don't worry... I keep both hands on the wheel. The cd is so uplifting. I really feel God talking to me every time I listen to it. I just want to go buy the cd for everyone I know. In my opinion, it is a must have for your cd collection!!

Seems like forever!

I feel like I haven't truly blogged in forever. By that I mean really read your blogs or post on mine. I came home Thursday from school to find our internet not working. The husband was still in Monroe and couldn't figure it out over the phone. So.. I've pretty much been limited to internet on my phone, which is great but it just isn't the same.

Now... I feel like I have so much to blog about that it would scare off any reader to read a post that long. I will give you the very very quick run down.

Thursday... I come home to no internet and find out the husband isn't coming home as planned. I sit outside Pasta Jacks for free interent, car battery dies, sister-in-laws comes to give me a jump start. I go to Auto Zone to get the battery checked out, spend an hour there to learn my batter is dead.

Friday... Very long day at school. Husband finally comes home. We attend his 10 year class reunion. Not my favorite time, but I guess it could have been worse.

Saturday... I was not a happy camper. But we watched the hogs start the season with a victory so it wasn't too bad. Still no internet at this point.

Sunday... Starts off bad, church helps. Finally all things are good in the Weaver house again except still no net. Sunday afternoon, my little brother comes down to celebrate my birthday since he wasn't able to last weekend. He gave me the new Britt Nicole cd and Francesca Batastelli cd so I've been jammin.


Today.. still no internet. Drew has been on the phone all day trying to get it fixed. Someone is coming tomorrow to work on the line. He finally got my phone set up so I can use my phone to get online. Married to a genius.


As for the upcoming week... tomorrow I'm "hosting" my first pep rally at school. I'm a bit stressed about this. I have never done anything like this before and I'm just worried that I'm not thinking of everything. I just pray it goes smoothly.

Andrew has to go back to Monroe tomorrow morning and spend the night. I'm actually not sad for me this time. I think I have too much to do for school for that. But I do feel bad for him. He is completely worn out and in need of rest. He has really taken it easy this weekend, but it just hasn't been enough for him to catch up.


So there it the last few days in a nutshell. I have lots on my mind that I would like to post about, but it is way to much for one post. So stay tuned for more. :)